Seriously.. not only have I not created in months, but I've just lost all my drive for doing so... I feel like all of my friends greatly outweigh me in skill, which they do, and I feel like something that I haven't been passionate about for a year+ now I may not even be cut out for...
Im still over here using other people's vectors and making what can be loosing defined as "art".
Not only that... but ever since I got into this, I have been even considering this as a possible career in life, if not just a side job or something like that.. But having this sudden realization, this realization that this may not be what I'm meant to do.. it just sort of crushes me
I have prided myself on being an "artist" more than I should at this point, because I honestly sometimes feel Im undeserving of that title. The majority of my hashed out wallpapers are essentially down to the core a drunken collage of other people's work. From the vectors I use to the brushes and fonts, I didn't even create my own logo (credit for that goes to ).
Call it what ever you want to, depression, self loathing, doubt, I just dont even feel worthy to start up Photoshop if all I can make anymore is half-assed baked shit. I sometimes just ask myself why I even bother anymore.
I just need an answer, something that will actually keep me going to keep making art... I don't even know why I'm posting this blog..
EDIT: Thank you so much to the people who have commented. It helps when someone else shines a light on something you thought invisible